The Running Has To Stop

        Had a dream today where I was stuck inside the FBI building when I was actually a fugitive trying to run away from them. At one point I carried a loved one out of there too. We (two other friends tried to help me out – guess they were fugitives too) ran a lot all the time – physically ran so much. Always nervous about what would be present around the corner.

       Finally we did manage to steal a car – it was a comfortable car. No more running but the fear of being caught was omnipresent. My heart was still beating right out of my chest. They did manage to catch us. We were held in a room with three officers. I had a brilliant idea and blinded two and almost the third one as well. I could run away but the others could not – they wanted me to be free. I ran like crazy. There were two options in a side alley, either up a flight of stairs or down a similar type of stairs. But I just couldn’t run. I was tired from all the running. I realized then that I didn’t need run – I could just walk. I decided to walk up to the stairs and decided to go down – mostly because I was still tired from the running. But the FBI folks thought I would be running and went ahead – they didn’t expect me to be walking. I was free for now.

     Was I running because they were chasing me? or were they chasing me just because I was running?

Who are you fooling?

I got to know about the imposter syndrome through this post. And the only reason the first lines hit me so much is because I think I fool everyone into believing that I’m much smarter than I am.

Maybe it’s a good thing that I don’t consider myself very good at my job – so I’m constantly trying to improve. But at the same time I may be getting into the cycle of looking for gigs that are below my potential. It gives me a secure feeling. I liked the line that meant a project is not worth taking if it does not scare you shitless – but being scared all the time is not a good feeling either.

I'm in a good place right now - mostly because I'm overlooking a lot of projects. So I don't get the time to fuss about these things and I oversee people who have lesser experience and logic.

But does that mean I'm not fooling anyone?

Books

I read – therefore… well I read. I’ve realized that I read more and more these days. I’ve always been the one to read up about latest trends in the world of the intertubes. Procrastination – I think not – more like a passion to collect information that enhances future problem solving capability. I use this information to do things that lead others to say – “why doesn’t everybody use/do this?” It’s only because they don’t know.
I’ve always done most of my reading on the pc. Why? Lots of reasons –

1. My office was a 15 min walk away from home.
2. Had an awesome unlimited internet connection.
3. I spent most of my time in front on the pc – I’d stopped watching television since everything could be downloaded.
4. Even though it would drain my time away – I liked reading online.

I always used to think of myself as an internet gopher – well turns out I just like to read.
This started when I made a new best friend – someone who had a repository of books I could access. I’ve been reading throughout this year but I’ve been reading regularly since August ’09.
I don’t especially like sleeping in the train ride to my new work place so I prefer to read. It makes me feel productive too.

Stuff read - (Since August)

• Life of Pi
• Super Freakonomics
• My friend Sancho (which I feel the need to mention had almost no reference to aforementioned Sancho)
• Two States
• Against All Odds
• Jurassic Park
• Bourne Identity
• A Fine Balance (which I’m currently reading)

 Drop me a comment if you have any suggestions for books that I must read.

My vanity plate would say WEB GEEK

Lets just say that I love the internet .... so much so that my girlfriend thinks of it as my mistress - someone she has to fight with for attention

My Busyness

I felt almost exactly like this earlier today.



Thankfully that feeling has passed.

I'd pick the Air Force

I belong in the air :)

SMS

steaming sips
on my lips
Delicious Honey

Epiphany

Its wrong to just try to fix symptoms of problems without even bothering to look at the root cause of things. The root needs to fixed - not right away but comprehension can ease the suffering of fixing all the little things that it has caused.

Some good stuff

Incentive

In Freakonomics the author describes how incentives make the world go round (.....apparently there's a movie made on the book that should be out soon)

I personally think a positive incentive feels much better than a negative one. Try telling someone that they've got a good physique - that'll definitely get them back to exercise faster.

Piracy

Every artist I know uses photoshop - but i dont think even one has paid for it(I would use it too if my laptop was a tad faster).... but adobe is losing loads of money because everyone loves free stuff.(Some disagree)

Personally I think the only practical way to stop software piracy is to have server side software (a la world of warcraft)

that's where web based apps could win.... but FOSS will soon change a lot of reasons.

Laws of Deadlines

1st law of deadlines: rate of dong work is inversely proportional to time left for deadline

What it means- High priority things (important and urgent) get done first - always

2nd law of deadlines: (Physical)Distance from work directly proportional to chances of finishing on time.

Corollary- You're more likely to finish something right in front of you


People who make lists basically set daily deadlines (so maybe that's why that works...... most of the time at least....)

Results

This is the week that I feel that I've actually utilized for something..it might have just been the result of the (terrifyingly) fast two weeks I've had before this one..but man! I feel that I've grown this week. 

I've found out things I need to work on - and I've worked on them too.

Things on my list include -

1. Think less - do more

2. Get better at stuff that I care about

3. Being logical = being sarcastic

It all seems logical when I look at it now - but somehow I feel my logic has decieved me all this time

Moral of the story -Never be ashamed to be yourself.

Math was never a friend

from xkcd

Subjective Opinion

Always pick stocks in fundamentally good companies. Daily ups and downs should not matter because you always invest for the long run

Friends are important to me.

Relief...but till when

I fixed my computer.. again.. I think I like messing it up just so I can fix it. This exercise is weird because it shows me time and again how I can have single minded focus for my objective.

It comes only for computers...till now...

Lesson of the day.
GRUB - Good, NTLDR - Bad

Hawaiian Shack

 Thanks to Saurabh I'm now a fan of the Long Island Iced Tea. Its somewhat like tea (if you consider Windows and Linux to be similar). Best enjoyed with loud music and friends. 

Hits you real hard real quick.

Song of the day(s)

I am unwritten, can't read my mind, I'm undefined
I'm just beginning, the pen's in my hand, ending unplanned

.....

I break tradition, sometimes my tries, are outside the lines
We've been conditioned to not make mistakes, but I can't live that way

.....

Today is where your book begins
The rest is still unwritten.

The Unwritten Law

I could have never imagined that it was illegal to use Opera with Google Docs.

Well you learn something new everyday.

Take Advantage of life

Stuff happens around you all the time, its time you tune in to what you want and take control of where you're heading. Begin with an end in mind and it doesn't matter if no one else but you can visualize it - its just because they lack your perspective.

On a more personal note - I realized a long time ago that people ask me directions all the time ( At least two people a day! ) , its time I take advantage of it. ;)